I’ve had a bit over a month to contemplate to me what a friend really is and who they really are.

I’ve known a lot of people in my life that just took and took and didn’t give anything back. I’ve also been the person doing the taking and never the giving.

I’ve grown up a bit and realized that I don’t need people in my life that consume my time for no good reason and are completely unable to add any value to my own life. I don’t need people who don’t work and live off of pogey. I don’t need people who work crappy retail jobs and then constantly complain about it. I don’t need people who smile when they look at me and stab me in the back when I’m not looking.

I’m mostly talking about people who are online, who I rarely ever meet, if I have met them. Not my real life friends. Oh God, my real life friends mean a lot to me!

I can’t maintain friendships with people who I simply don’t ever see in real life. It’s not sustainable.

I was invited to a party once a few months ago and realized that I didn’t really know anyone there. Anyone who I had been chatting with online for years I finally met for the first time and I didn’t even know them. I couldn’t even have a conversation with them because they weren’t even the person I thought they were.

I’ve known so many people who had no idea what a friend really truly was and I really feel sorry for them because they will always take but never give and they’ll take until the “friendship” is gone.

I guess it is finally time for me to grow up and stop playing with toys. I’m done with the fandom. It doesn’t mean anything to me anymore.